It’s certainly been a while huh? Yeah. I haven’t been posting on my blog in the last couple of months. The reason for this is quite simple. I simply haven’t been managing my time well enough. I think – or maybe used to think, I’m still not sure myself – that I have the potential to take on any number of tasks and do them all with my best effort. It might take a while, but eventually I would learn, apply, and adapt to my situation and new workload. That sounds pretentious and idealistic I know, but there you go.
For my second semester I decided to take 20 credits, split across 5 classes. It’s been a bumpy road so far to say the least. Like most people I thought “Oh one more class, how bad can it be?” Turns out pretty bad, actually. I’d say that juggling my classes this semester has been an order of magnitude harder than last semester. It’s an interesting experience. It feels like everyday is a test of my character, of my dedication, and of my values. Sounds corny but seriously.
Everyone has those moments where they think “I should study, but I want to relax.” I’d say that I had those moments so much more this semester than I did last semester, and every single time, I had a choice to make. It felt like I had to be the best version of me 100% of the time. It got really tiring, because like, sometimes I just want to be an okay version of me you know? And the more days I wasn’t “the best version of me” the harder I found it to be that version. Essentially this semester I found that deciding to give in to instant gratification became an incredibly slippery slope.
Anyway, spring break was great. I found that my problem wasn’t really with work piling up, but rather my mindset and approach. I needed spring break to find that stable footing and start climbing up the slippery slope, so to speak. So yeah, that’s been my second semester at Allegheny so far. Lots of work that needed to be done, and lots of me deciding to put it off. It’s definitely been interesting, and I’ve learned a lot.
This Saturday I’ll be posting about a robotics event that the CS department is going to at the Meadville Area High School, so that should be fun. See ya!